the hopeful july

July cycle

July itself warrant a post of its own because it gave a rim of hope when we did the scan at the beginning of the cycle.  I am still on Puregol jabs on 26th to 31st and returned back to clinic on 1st August.  Ann was extremely please and alarmed that there were a couple of eggs growing well and two large eggs waiting to be released, furthermore , the lining was thick. She was happy and it made me happy too that my doc thought we might have higher chances. The healthy egg growths and lining could be due to  the complete two weeks break in Korea. There is definitely a high correlation between stress and your fertility health .

 I started calling hubs and let him know . We were hopeful, we dreamt of having tweenies, we laughed and joked about life with tweenies, but the journey of conceiving continued as the pregnancy strip turned negative at the end . Menses came unexpectedly at day 23, an extremely short cycle which Ann said could be due to the early ovulation. I was feeling down right blue and uncontrollably shed tears and feeling moody for a day . this emotional swing happened despite my mental preparedness for it. I am beginning to appreciate all the sharing of the mothers on the fertility forums.

Cycle monitoring continues

may and June 2013 cycle 

So the April  cycle flopped in CLOMID as my lining and eggs did not respond positively to the drug . I t did not helped that at work front, the work pace was pretty hectic unknowingly. so in the May cycle , Ann has changed my medication to Puregol jabs, this pen like injection that I needed to start jabbing myself from day 2 onwards to day 7 and thereafter I would go back for her to do the follicular scanning and determine if my follicles were growing healthily. there were a couple of follicles which were growing pretty well and hence I was given a hcg jab to simulate the release of the egg on day 10  , and thereafter we need to be diligent in our work at home.

While Puregol jab seemed almost painless, but for someone who was afraid of needles , this was still a daunting task for me. the nurses have grown to known this patient of theirs and was patient in encouraging their patient to try giving the jab to herself, but still the attempt was fruitless and she has rendered help from the hubby.

The hormonal jabs had caused some giddy spells, fatigue.  It was then recommended that supplement should be started. so vitamin d, c, omega three fatty acids, folic tablets had to be taken so that overall well being and egg quality could be improved . The supplements were pricy!

but still, these may cycle  was negative. june we stop stimulating since i am going away to be for conference in korea in early weeks of july. Ann advised to give body a break so that I can be all recharged again to start

Emotionally, there were lots of questioning on the next step to do. clearer directions were given when I had a good chat with the boss, poured out to her about my concerns and worries, laid out what I felt should be done in the next half of the year and next year.

by god's grace , boss was understanding and supportive that it was needful for me to slow down and was supportive of my plans to either took 3 days work week or clearing block leave in the next half of year. It relieved me a little to know that concrete actions were taken.